I think I should start up again

I've returned.
I dont have too much to report. I actually have come to be comfortable with living in Orange county. I haven't really visited LA too much since my departure. I do miss it, but im getting used to my new life. Gabriel is still a part of my life. Although I do feel as though slowly im moving away from the idea of the two of us being in each others lives. he holds on to our love and I do love him still, I just dont trust him. Trust is the bigger issue and I dont know if things could ever be the same. Perhaps its foolish and only going to further hurt me but I guess I just cant let go. I wonder what things will be like months from now...