Haven't blogged for a month!!!!!!!!
I guess I just felt like I had the same stuff to say all the time. I was always angry. Things have somewhat changed; the biggest change being my move back to OC. I'm gonna miss LA a lot, but I suppose I'll still hang out in LA often. I had a lot of anxiety as the move got closer, I was scared that living so far from LA and Gabriel was wrong for me. Even though, I wanted a fresh start, I didn't want to let go of Gabriel and I. However Gabriel and I, are on better terms... We are able to talk and not hate each other, which is somewhat good. I don't forgive him. I can't get past it, even when I focus on the future, I still get caught up and hurt by everything that happened. Still at the thought of it all, I get really emotional and cry. I don't know if things will get better between us, but I suppose it's best to focus on myself. I knew what I didn't like and what I needed and I'm not going to ask for it. I'm not an option, I'm a priority! I'm tired of getting disappointed, I deserve someone who wants to make me happy and shows me what I mean to them.
Anyways, heres to new beginnings! XOXO